The First Time

The first time I was raped
I was thirteen
I’d never been drunk or high before
Yet somehow I remember everything vividly

I lied and said I was fifteen
Cause everyone was so much older
And I wanted to fit in
I’d never met this young man before
Only known of him, seen him in passing
A friend of a friend
It didn’t take long after the shots and bong hits
For him to lead me down the dark hallway
Into a pitch black bedroom
My innocence gone as fast as he took off my clothes
My virginity spilled onto the sheets
I’d never had a pool of blood in my pants before
I didn’t even know what to do with a maxipad
I left that party with a piece of me stolen
And I drank for the next 20 years.