Phenomenon of Craving

When I resisted the drink I craved the grave

When I resisted suicide I craved the drink

I craved to be numb, I knew I was going to die

I had to stop, I begged and bartered with God

Take everything, all that I am and all that I’ve got

Please just don’t ever let me drink again

Please don’t ever let me leave my sons like “that”

The phenomenon of God’s Grace saved me

And now I crave only peace and serenity

Until God takes me to my Heavenly home

I not only choose to live, I crave it desperately

I do not know how, and I do not know why

I am so blessed, grateful and humbled

What a miracle it is, just to be alive