I suffer from an eating disorder

And I don’t ever talk about it

Mostly because I do eat

I love food

I love all food

I binge eat in fact, often times

And normally I eat well and healthy

But I have self punishment mechanisms

I’ve only just recently admitted to

And I struggle to convince myself to self love

I don’t eat when I’m mad at myself

When I have un-forgiveness or anxiety

Sometimes I’m just nauseous and can’t

It’s a purging too, not always a punishment

Sometimes fasting helps me feel better

It’s humbling and grounding in a way

A tearing down, for a building back up

I’m trying to heal and be better

For myself, yes, but for my family, my sons

I am praying more, for Grace and guidance

We all suffer from deep depression

And self sabotage in one way or another

I also suffer from a sleeping disorder

From a childhood full of trauma

And a life living in addiction and sin

It’s not a glamorous thing, the truth

We all need help yet hide in shame

I’m learning though that in my weaknesses

Is where He is strong, my God

Thank you for Jesus, my Salvation

Come break bread with me, Brothers & Sisters

Come and let us eat